Disclaimer: If you’re feeling especially tender today, then please come back to this post later. Some of what I share here might be hard to receive. Come back when your own inner resources are feeling optimized, so that you can hold space for something that might be a bit heavy.
I’d also like to clarify that this is meant to bring awareness, so that we can explore solutions collectively. If guilt or shame shows up, acknowledge them and surround them with self-compassion. Surround yourself with self-compassion.
We’re all doing the best we can with the tools, resources, and information we have. And if you’re in pain, it becomes harder to hold space for someone else’s pain. Take care of yourself. You are responsible for your healing and your partner is responsible for theirs. And together, you get to hold space for each other and allow yourselves to be held by the loving support of community.
Love always,
Natalee
And now for the article…

Almost everything that I share is specifically for women/femmes who’ve experienced loss.
However, having had conversations with some of the men in my life who’ve experienced different forms of loss, it’s clear that there are so few resources dedicated to their healing. Compared to women/femmes, men often get overlooked or deprioritized because:
There is an assumption that the person who held the baby in their body experiences more pain from the loss and is therefore worthy of more attention. And…
As women/femmes, we’re socialized to express our emotions openly, while men are socialized to be “strong” —ie. to hide their emotions, to “keep it together” for their partner or family.
Most of us share these assumptions or “agreements” even if we don’t express them verbally. I believe what happens unconsciously is that, in wanting to help men to maintain their image of the strong protector and “keep it together,” we (friends and family members, and sometimes, partners) create just enough space for them to know that we care (a hug, a compassionate look, an encouraging word), but not enough space so that they can “fall into pieces.”
Falling into pieces is liberating. It is the full surrender. It’s the letting go of the labels and expectations. It’s allowing oneself to feel the hurt so that it can be healed. It’s the release that has to happen before we can integrate the wisdom that builds a foundation for something even stronger. (When this doesn't happen, the pain compounds.)
"falling into pieces needs to happen in a space where it feels safe to do so... Safety is a prerequisite for the surrender."
And falling into pieces needs to happen in a space where it feels safe to do so. We need to be held in a chrysalis by trusted friends, family members, healers, teachers, guides…Safety is a prerequisite for the surrender.
And that’s because falling into pieces is vulnerable and messy.
We ache and we cry. Stuff from the past come up. We forget about hygiene. Dishes go unwashed. Laundry goes undone. Rooms are left uncleaned. Takeout becomes the norm. Schedules and routines become non-existent. And ideally, no one has to go to work or answer to anyone.
We don’t get to have this without community. And here’s the other thing: women/femmes are granted more room to fall Into pieces than men are.
Most Women Get to Fall into Pieces. This isn’t the same for Men
Most women/femmes get to fall into pieces because our partners hold the loving space as we do so. Or at the very least, they encourage us to get the help we need.
Our society and culture grant women the permission to be held in healing spaces without judgment. The same often isn’t true for men. Their barriers to healing are complex and layered. They, themself, might refuse support, insisting that they’re okay or that their priority is to make sure that we’re okay. (Let's keep asking. Let's keep checking in. There’s more there.)
They’re humans and they’re hurting. Many just haven’t been socialized to express their emotions or allow others to hold space for their emotions. Pregnancy loss, infant loss, or infertility is new, unfamiliar, and scary territory. If they share the depths of the pain that they’re in with us, they worry about how that might impact how we see them. They worry about adding their pain on top of ours.
We Can't Get an Accurate Measure of Anyone's Pain
"Trauma isn’t what happened to someone but how it changes them…the impact it’s having on them now."
People sometimes try to assess how worthy they are of their pain based on the circumstances surrounding it. Trauma Specialist, Gabor Maté, shares that trauma isn’t what happened to someone but how it changes them…the impact it’s having on them now.
There's no question that losing a baby we held in our body or experiencing infertility is incredibly painful for us. There’s also no question that the partners who witness us going through this (often feeling as helpless) and have also lost their child (or the hope of a child) are in incredible pain as well.
What's coming to mind for me is: When men move from experience to experience—during childhood, teenage years, early to mid adulthood—without access to the spaces to process, release and integrate without judgment, then who knows when they’ll go into shut-down? Will the next painful experience be the one that breaks them?
Their pain isn't only the pregnancy-related loss they're going through, but what's still unresolved from all the other painful experiences they didn't have the resources or support to tend to.
(My heart aches to write this. Humanity is in pain—yes. And I’m thinking of the men who never feel safe enough to ask for or accept help for their inner healing.)
The percentages for alcohol/drug abuse and addictions are often higher for men vs women. Substance abuse, addictions, and binging are used to numb and distract from the pain when there are no healthy outlets.
The question isn’t about who suffers more. There is no way of measuring that. The important question is “How can we both be healed?”
I know I’m touching on something tender. ❤️
Let's pause to check in for shame and guilt: This isn’t your fault. You didn't cause the hurt. It happened and is happening to both of you.
You cannot be responsible for your partner's healing. This is complex and it isn’t just affecting your family. Our society does not prioritize healing and care. We often don’t have the luxury to pause work and life to focus on our mental, emotional, and physical wellbeing.
And if you are getting support for your healing, don’t stop. The more balanced you are, the more you’re able to support your partner.
Where Do We Go From Here
If you've been listening to the podcast for a while, you know I don’t share anything without offering potential solutions.
I want to admit though, that I don’t have many of the answers. I’m still questioning, observing, and learning.
In my exploration process, I’ve begun putting together resources that may be helpful in your partner’s healing journey, or may help you to understand their experience a bit more intimately.
Here are a few below:
Felicia and Karega Bailey's Story of Love, Loss, & Healing
A dear friend shared the story of angel parents, Felicia and Karega Bailey with me a few years ago. I was deeply, deeply moved by seeing how they held space for each other during the healing process. Their story also shows evidence of the healing that’s possible when angel parents are held by their friends, family, community. (Being supported by community is paramount to our healing.)
Their website with tools and resources, including books
Stand By Me (Season 4, Episode 405 of Black Love) sharing the story of their love, loss and healing
Tribute Video to their Angel Baby
“Radical Gentleness” Song by Karega Bailey
“No Weapon” Song by Karega Bailey Feat. SoLauren & Mali Music
Sol Affirmation Sundays with wisdom shared by Karega and Felicia on “Choosing to Practice Love,” individual healing, and healing while being surrounded by community
Grieving Dads Book & Website
Grieving Dads is a platform that holds space for fathers who’ve experienced the loss of a child. It was founded by Kelly Farley, who experienced two pregnancy losses with his wife:
Dads Sharing their Stories of Loss on the Grieving Dads Website (I’ve bawled reading some of these)
Blog Posts with Encouragement & Affirmations for grieving fathers
"Love, Dad" Website & Digital Care Package
Digital Creator and Dad to 3 Angels, Gabriel Soh, holds space for dads through his platform Love Comma Dad.
Website with access to digital care package for dads
Instagram page with inspiration and insights
An Angel Father Sharing His Experience with Loss
RVoyage Blogger and Youtube Host shares his perspective after he and his wife experienced pregnancy loss.
“Honoring our Partners”: Ep 26 of the Podcast
In this episode of the Preparing for Pregnancy After Loss Podcast, I share what I interpreted as my husband’s experience through healing and grief and a poem I wrote for him. I also offer suggestions on supporting our partners in their healing.
Taking Time Off to Heal
I recommend time off to process, heal, to fall into pieces...and feel more restored again. You and your partner can go somewhere quiet and beautiful or stay at home without a schedule. To explore doing so without loss (or extensive loss) of income, learn what Family & Medical leave is available through your employer or in your state. You can also support your partner to explore a Mental Health Leave of Absence or Disability Leave.
Practitioners
I like sharing recommendations for practitioners (relationship coaches, energy healers, somatic therapists, etc.) directly with clients because I get to feel into whether or not it might be a good fit. If you’d like recommendations, please email me at hello@nataleefacey.com or book a free consult here.
Taking Care of Yourself:
I hope I've emphasized enough that you should be taking care of yourself. If your partner doesn’t feel ready to explore healing practices, you being healthy and balanced is already adding healing energy to your home. If you're both out of balance, none of you is able to support the other.
By continuing with your healing journey, you’ll be able to develop the inner resources to hold space for your partner or be inspired to recommend something that may resonate with them.
Conversation Prompts
If you’ve been receiving support in your own healing and you have the capacity to hold space for your partner’s experience, here are prompts you can explore:
What was it like for you when…
What are some of the things that are most challenging for you now?
What helps you to feel [more at peace]?
What can I do to help? / Is there anything I can do more of that [brings you joy]?
Your Presence
There are times when your partner may not feel like talking or being vulnerable. In those moments, simply be present with them in the silence. Breathe with them in the silence. Allow their head to rest on your shoulder. No words are needed sometimes. Your love and care can be felt.

"Alone We Can Do So Little. Together We Can Do So Much" ~ Helen Keller
And to close, an angel father's truth expressed through poetry and song...
"Radical Gentleness"- by Angel Father, Karega Bailey
"No Weapon" - by Angel Father, Karega Bailey
I’m here if you’d like support with other recommendations or resources. Schedule a free consult free consult here.
With Love,
Natalee